Blog de Vinictuss

I hide, every day. I walk through society with a smile on my face, but inside, my heart is broken. The truth is, I struggle to accept myself. I see people proud of their families and I wonder, anxiously: "Will I ever have that for myself?"

The shadows around me whisper a cruel "No!" They mock me: "How can you have a family? You are gay, have inclinations towards violence, are sadistic, masochistic, and on top of that, you have this weird fetish for strangulation."

They accuse me, saying that I don't know what love is. And for a long time, I believed them. These conversations with my inner shadows were my only refuge, until I found myself utterly alone.

One day, I met someone who shared the same desires, someone who could understand the complexity of my being. But our relationship was nothing more than a friendship. I was back in the darkness, more lost than ever.

Now, I find myself at a crucial phase in my life. I need to dive into the shadows within me, confront these demons, and rescue the Vinícius who knows how to love and accept himself. It's a frightening journey, but a necessary one.

I know that the day I manage to rescue that part of me, I will be able to find true love. I have learned that self-love is the first step to conquering any other form of love. I am ready for this journey, ready to find myself.